You will always have a spot with me. My arms will always be open to be the friend you were and I always have been regardless of all problems and situations. Remember, it’s no matter what between us. You told me that, you told me that no matter what you would never walk out of my life because you could never find an excuse to.
(via the-thoughts-i-think)
Running into old loves and old friends always sends a rush of remorse and joy to me. The love and care is still there, even if we are not there for each other anymore in the same “I’ll be there in 10 minutes” at 4AM to be with each other sort of there.
You are different today, but I’m okay with it. I learned how to deal with the change that endured in and around you. I’m still thankful that were friends and for what our friendship is today. We didn’t lose our friendship, but you lost me in a sense.
”You’re different now, I could tell right away. You don’t care anymore. You live day to day. Drugs, sex and alcohol is all that matters to you. You had me, but you lost that too.” - Unknown
Loving you and taking care of you seemed to become all that mattered to me at one point. Those things still matter now; but, I am going to take care of myself as well. I always try to take care and love everyone else before myself. I need to take care of myself because I have forgotten how much my body needs me to.
Don’t return to steal my heart. If you’re going to return, be back to give me your time and friendship.
(Source: lovequotesrus, via yoogabbagaby)
We’re falling apart, and I know it. We both know it. It’s tearing me apart more than anything right now, and it isn’t what I want. But I know it’s for the best. I push you away during the day, because I hate the feeling of being attached to someone who’s approximately 500 miles away. I’m sick of it, actually. I feel so pathetic to think that you would ever want to be with me when you have tons of girls back home falling at your feet. I tell myself your words are nothing but words, and soon enough, you’ll begin to realize that you need someone who’s physically there for you. We don’t hold a specific title, but it truly makes no difference if we did or not. The way we speak to each other, the cute names we call each other, and the promises we make already makes me feel like I’m making a commitment to you. That if I talk to someone else here, it would be wrong. Because in the back of my mind, it’s you. It’s always you. And I honestly do not want that anymore.
But come nightfall, I begin to miss you in such a way that it literally aches. I wonder what you’re doing, how your day was at school, how things are back home. And then I reach my phone to call you, and you seldom answer. And that’s when you push me away. And I can’t help but to question whether or not you’re talking to someone else. Someone new. And if you are, I shouldn’t even be upset because deep inside, I know that that’s for the best. For both of us.
Can’t you see, I don’t want anything to do with you anymore. But at the same time, I still want you here in my life. Things are just too impossible for us right now. High school was such a joke compared to what college has thrown at me. I spend my days in class, and if I’m not in class, my head is in the books. And if not, then I’m out and about with the new people I met here. The people I’ll spend my my next four years here with.
I looked at the moon again tonight, knowing that you’ve probably looked up at the same moon. “No matter how far apart we are, we’re looking up at the same moon. And that is enough for now to make me feel close enough to you.” And I won’t ever forget that. I promise.
