Thank you for taking me by surprise to make my stressful day better by such simple things to remind me I’ll do great at what I’m doing and that I’m beautiful as I am. Thank you for believing in me. It still means a lot to know you are happy and happier with me here. I’m either really lucky or really blessed, but either way, I’m thankful for your presence.

“And you have been nothing but amazing and I never take that for granted.” - Gym Class Heroes

“It’s true that not everything stays forever, but there are some things you’d fight for, so you can have them just a little longer.” - The Notebook of Love

I’m fighting for you everyday to keep you a while longer and at this time of difficulty I will only fight harder to be there for you and to some how try my best to help you ease from your heart break. I know that you’ve lost someone so close to you that you feel your heart’s broken and I know that I can even mend that no matter what I say or do. I don’t know what to say and what I could even say because this is one of those things nobody’s ever really prepared for despite the lead up or not. I now know why you were so stressed and this explains a lot to all those bits and pieces you shared with me that had made little next to no sense to me, and I understand why you didn’t want to share this with me in particular. You were being unselfish yet again and thinking about others, thinking about me, you didn’t want to sadden me or bring any burden upon me.

I’m sorry and condolences to you and your family. I know that right now you should be with your fam more than anyone or anything, and that’s just what you’ll be doing. I’m sure she was a great woman, you’ve always talked greatly of your family, especially your grandparents. I don’t know how many people still sit down with their family for dinner, but you always put time aside for that. It may not be the same now on Sundays when you sit down for dinner but you live on, the world doesn’t just stop. I’m sure it’s hard and that it will be hard to adjust to this sudden and significant of a change in your life.

You know that even prior to me knowing the reason behind why you wanted to hang out to escape from the major weight on your shoulders so much these past few months that I did it because I wanted to, because I wanted to be there for you. And now that I know what happened, you know without a doubt I’ll be there with you even faster as soon as you say the word. I’m not going anywhere, I don’t ever intend to be distant from you to be honest, so don’t ever hesitate to get at me. This friendship has easily flourished and became one that we both cherish, and with that itself I’m thankful. If you wish, I’ll still be that escape even when it’s three in the morning. I’ll do whatever I canto help, because it’s you. Like you said the other night, I wouldn’t just leave because it’s you, and at times like this, I definitely wouldn’t. It’d be wrong to go away just because you’re going through a tough time and I don’t know how to handle things like this either. I’m not going anywhere away from you, even though I will be on vacation in a few months for a good three weeks, that doesn’t mean I won’t be able to talk to you.

I’ve been someone so close to you these past few years that it scares and saddens me so much to know that you’re facing the loss of someone that means the world to you. She’s your heart and you keep telling me how tough and amazing of a woman she is. She’s one of the few women you love unconditionally that you were so close to growing up and to this day, it is so hard to say or do anything right now. I never intend or expect to be amazing or great as either of the two women in your life that you respect so much, I just want to be that someone you’re thankful for as I know you are. You’re a tough person and you’re amazing on your own; I know where you get it from because you were raised by wise and amazing individuals that gave you the world. I always tell you how amazing of a person you are and I’m forever grateful to be blessed to have you in my life as you give me the world, I hope that I can some how do the same for you. I know that right now we’ll probably grow a bit distant because your time, attention, heart, and head is somewhere else and that’s okay with me. I know that as hard as this is that you’ll move forward. Without a doubt this will take a lot of time to happen but I don’t want to go anywhere, I wouldn’t leave someone that has been nothing but the best at the hardest time in his life.

All I can do right now is just be here like I always am, I want you to be able to talk to me about things so personal that you never would share with anyone, not even me despite how close we are. I’m happy you can talk to me about this and how everything leading up to this now makes sense to me. I want to do whatever I can to help but it’s like you said, there’s not anything I can really do. All I can do is be here for you to talk and ramble to as you grieve, I have to try to bring you comfort in this situation that has arose in your life and our friendship. I’m still going to be your escape no matter what.

Please know that I’m always here no matter what and I made you a promise a few years back that I haven’t yet broken nor ever intend to. I’ll continue to be your escape, good friend, and one and only CG. Take care babe, you’re invincible remember? I’ll always try.. .