Cosmic Gate & Emma Hewitt - Calm Down
Does your life fall away from view?
As the time runs away
Whatever will you do
Do you want me again, my dear
I will wait for you
If your thoughts turn to prey on you
I will keep them away, so far away
Through the dark night I’ll stay with you
I will comfort you
Oh, I will
Calm down
Your nervous state
I’ll sing you a lullaby
Calm down
There’s no mistake
To keep you up all night
Fall down
Here with me
Baby, we’ll be alright
Baby, we’ll be alright
Calm down
I have discovered for myself that this statement is true: You find out who your real friends are once you’re in college. Thank you for those who still continue to be there after graduating high school. It’s so beautiful and comforting to know that not even distance can hinder our friendship. Although.. I find it quite sad that I can count all of you with just one hand.
You tell me I am the best and I should know that, especially because there are not many people like me around. I may be the best for and to you, but it doesn’t mean I am the best overall. I have my flaws but I am good at being me and it is true that I don’t need to control other things going on to be happy. I am happy because you are always here to remind me of the best things in me. You really appreciate me and everything I do; if only everyone else was so appreciative as you. You are truly a good friend, one that would not let me be left in despair on my birthday simply because losing weight was more important to you than celebrating my birth and life. You may work yourself to achieve a body that I joked around about you having, but you began to shape yourself for you. I loved and love you as you are, the more or less of you there is does not change how much I care for you. You are the one person that has provided me unconditional love, care, support, and an unwavering friendship. You are all sorts of wonderful.
Some comfort lies in the in between stages in our lives with certain people in our lives. You may not know where you stand in these in betweens but a sense of comfort may follow with it. Seemingly, happiness with a person can help contribute to this comfort. If you are happy with a person in your life, why do you need to change anything? Yes, you may want a title to what you may be or an answer to your questions, but do those things determine you and that person’s future? Does having a title or a ring make you stay with a person? Think about this, despite that you may want these things, if you are being treated right and happy, what value does a ring hold other than monetary and aesthetic value? Maybe you are used to an idea of having a title and a ring because of your upbringing and the picture painted by society of a relationship and marriage. Commitment doesn’t need to be shown by a title or a ring, one’s actions can prove that as well with just as powerful of a message. When you live your own life and others live theirs, yet you meet somewhere mutual at a mutual time to be together because you choose to is significant. If you choose to be with someone, you are making a choice to give them time and the opportunity to share things with you. The value of a bond with someone should not be defined by things that can be bought, but they are more than welcome to be things to enhance or bring more to a relationship. Just my 4am thoughts.
You’re one lucky person to have this time and these moments. I’m satisfied with how this has played out but there are unanswered questions. Even when you provide me the opportunity to ask you whatever I please, I can’t seem to bring myself to ask you the questions I have because I would rather not know. I fear the answer and the truth more than I fear the future. You can repeat that you have plans for us and the future you see me a part of but those don’t justify or excuse you for right now. My walls have came back because I need to protect myself again after throwing myself into something different and so new. I will always be comfortable and happy with what the forces of the world has brought us to have but I will always want to know where to go up from here. We’ll sink or swim, maybe even drown for a while. Thank you for the ‘everything’ that you have given me. Here’s to whatever else the future has for us.
You always had me but you walked away and once I did the same, you came back. I let it go and I think you should too. All we have left is a unstable friendship that I’m willing to revert back to our former comfort, but I’m not interested in much more of a bond with you after how cold you were towards me.
How my closet is starting to look: filled with knit sweaters. I just need some ugly Christmas sweaters now.
(via stephaniiet)
