Being happy with someone that has been a friend for the past five months and that is becoming more as the days go by is worth the risk I’m taking. A person that was once a complete stranger to me has become someone so significant in my life in the span of a few months. It all started with a few drunken encounters and that was all it took us to begin developing a relationship rather than being acquaintances for the rest of our lives. The drunken encounters led to some casual conversations that gradually grew to be more personal. Soon enough a friendship that was once so casual became something more and something else that made us happy. Now it’s something else that makes us happy to be where we are with who we were there with. No thoughts or intentions of a friendship being anything more but through friendship, we all can catch feelings. I’m thankful to have a friendship with someone that is such a good person in general, not just to me. Waking up in a world where I am always looking forward to where this will take me is still something I’m getting used to but I’m okay with that. Everything has been surreal; I never saw it coming that I would be as happy as I am with the person that I have by me but I am thankful for them and everything so far.
I have become used to putting up walls from people to protect myself the past few years that it became what I am accustomed to doing. Only so many get through the walls I put up and stay in my life, and that’s what makes me selective of who I let in. I don’t want anyone in my life that’s only going to be a part of my life temporarily; it’s not fair to me that they come into my life and leave when convenient to them. I want people in my life that will stay even if things unravel for the better and the worse. I am surrounding myself with all the right people that make me happy. This time I won’t run from a good thing because I’m scared to get hurt. I am not going to run from someone who has been nothing but a good thing in my life, because I’m getting too comfortable or attached. I would rather be happy and have the good times now and deal with the potential heart break in the future than regret that I never stayed to see where I could be with someone because I was scared. I may be in fear but I’m going to give the benefit of the doubt because I have a good gut feeling about everything. The future I once feared has become the mysterious and alluring future I want. No more running, no more hiding in fear, I’m going to let everything be and continue to be happy. Here I am, happy again and thankful to have someone around me that has brought out the best me and is making me a better me by showing me everything I once saw in someone else but with more to offer while opening my eyes to a happier day every day.
A former coworker and good friend took me here recently, I was absolutely blown away by the view that this picture does no justice to. Two and a half years have passed and I still get along with him so well and even better than we used to. I sometimes even wonder what if we still called and texted each other every day and if we hung out weekly what it would be like now for us. I’m happy that now that he is better with his phone in terms or returning calls and messages that I can always call him and he will be there like he has been when he could these past few years. He tries to do what he can to help me and he tries to make it work between us to maintain our strong friendship. It is so heartwarming to have some call to ask if they can hang out with you because they miss you. We go months without speaking or seeing each other because we both maintain very busy schedules and lives, but when we do speak and see each other, we pick up right where we left off. I’m just as thankful to have a friend like you around as you are of me.
For the past few weeks I’ve constantly been thinking about what I want out of life and what would make me really happy. It’s not money. It’s not two big cars. It’s not a beach house. It’s not a guy who is x, y and z. It’s not to have a big successful career. It’s not this big fancy life style. The…
It scares me that I’ve given someone the ability to completely
fuck me over/hurt me/break my heart/ make me happy.
I lowkey wanna keep the walls up.
(Source: yoogabbagaby)
Thank you for taking me by surprise to make my stressful day better by such simple things to remind me I’ll do great at what I’m doing and that I’m beautiful as I am. Thank you for believing in me. It still means a lot to know you are happy and happier with me here. I’m either really lucky or really blessed, but either way, I’m thankful for your presence.
“And you have been nothing but amazing and I never take that for granted.” - Gym Class Heroes
You tell me I am the best and I should know that, especially because there are not many people like me around. I may be the best for and to you, but it doesn’t mean I am the best overall. I have my flaws but I am good at being me and it is true that I don’t need to control other things going on to be happy. I am happy because you are always here to remind me of the best things in me. You really appreciate me and everything I do; if only everyone else was so appreciative as you. You are truly a good friend, one that would not let me be left in despair on my birthday simply because losing weight was more important to you than celebrating my birth and life. You may work yourself to achieve a body that I joked around about you having, but you began to shape yourself for you. I loved and love you as you are, the more or less of you there is does not change how much I care for you. You are the one person that has provided me unconditional love, care, support, and an unwavering friendship. You are all sorts of wonderful.
