(Source: jamielynhoward, via warrenmedina)
I’m terrified. It’s been a long time since I’ve been left in such despair, and sadly haven’t caught on. The hardest thing is to say and do the things you don’t want to, the things you’re not ready for. It sucks not having you here, this is hard for me. It’s hard for me to admit to you how much everything has changed. It hasn’t just been a good summer, it was the best one. You brought me to my peak but I’m not sure if that means I have to go back down now. Am I going back down my happy peak with you because I’ve reached the top and you’re at the bottom right now? I don’t know. I’m worried to fall on my ass again and have my friendship taken advantage of. I had mentioned to you to never abuse my friendship and the fact I can’t just leave you. I can’t just turn around and face my back towards you as I walk away. I know I can’t just leave someone that has provided me with an unwavering friendship that I’m begging not to have second thoughts about for many reasons. Maybe it was a better idea you didn’t show me any love, you showed me the world that I had not seen and you gave it to me. I feel left alone now that you’re not around as much, you have a lot more on your own plate to deal with then to sit around with me doing nothing and conversing about nothing. It’s hard seeing you deal with so much and not being physically there with you but you haven’t exactly been allowing for that. It’s becoming that last minute call, you’re riding on the fact I made that promise to you that I’ve stayed loyal to. I’m scared to fall on my ass with you, even though you’ve told me multiple times that you would catch me, things are different now. Everything changed between us the first time you held me and that we can’t rewind. I guess my confidence is slipping up, I’ve found to be insecure not knowing what’s happening. I don’t know what this is not having you here, it is so hard.
“The only people worthy to be in your life are the one’s that help you through the hard times and laugh with you after the hard times pass.”
You’re more than worthy and more than enough.
(via xoxojennyy)
If someone really loves you, they wouldn’t let you slip away no matter how hard the situation is.
(via mandywan)
