Don’t ask for a future from someone when you are already a part of their past. You can’t expect someone to give you another shot, sometimes it happens but often times it doesn’t because you have ruined things or the other person has realized it is better without you in their present and future.
why did this make my heart drop :( Lolllll… x_x
Because it was believed at one point they realized what was on the line was more important than something that was either yesterday, some insecurity, some disagreement, or just feelings that fade, that what they had was worth it.
In a single year I was granted and blessed with a handful of memories that I hold in a safe to remind myself of everything when I want to reminisce upon great parts of my life with someone who has given more quality to my life . It doesn’t matter how we put each other through times of frustration with the intent to build on what we have. No matter what has happened in your life and in mine in the last twelve months, despite the extent and intensity of the occurrences, we have remained by each other and pulled each other closer to us. It does not matter what obstacles we are faced with; because, as difficult as they may be, we have been granted the privilege to have the other to support us and take care of us. We have been through a rough year in other aspects of our life but we have been pure bliss. I am realizing that I have matured a lot with you around in the past few years. It is the everyday things you share and teach me that change my perspective and adjust it. I am learning that I have been on a search for something without knowing what I was really looking for; some would say I was on a pursuit of happiness. I have learned that I don’t need half of the luxuries I have to be happy. These surroundings may be pleasant and comforting but they aren’t the things that make me happy that I cherish regularly. Finding out that no matter where I am that I feel close to you is simply an indicator to myself that regardless of what I’m doing and how I’m doing, I still feel strongly connected to you. I’m selfless facing you and everything that you challenge me with. You have brought out the best in me to share with others. It does not matter what the days are like because where ever I am, whatever I’m doing, however things are, I know I have you and you know I’m with you.
You always had me but you walked away and once I did the same, you came back. I let it go and I think you should too. All we have left is a unstable friendship that I’m willing to revert back to our former comfort, but I’m not interested in much more of a bond with you after how cold you were towards me.
