Those conversations with you every chance we have.

(Source: staypozitive, via janineparcero)

Don’t lose yourself trying to hold on to someone who doesn’t care about losing you.

(via 6o4-)

Tonight I spent over an hour arguing with you about me having wanted to see you in a serious yet more than happy way. I wanted to see you tonight but you were getting tired by the time I was home from work and out of the shower. I was okay with not seeing you tonight or last night when we both took a rain check since we were both really drained, but tonight when I told you it was okay that I don’t see you tonight even when I wanted to you felt bad. I said that I wanted to see you but I was in no way trying to guilt trip you or anything, I was okay with taking another rain check and letting you sleep. I’d admit to it if I was guilt tripping you but I was being honest about being okay with not hanging out and letting you rest up. You asked me if I’d honestly prefer not seeing you at all or seeing you for a short while and we both knew the answer to that one, that was a guilt trip you pulled on me because you felt bad and was trying to find a way to make me say okay to hanging out tonight again.

You said that I do ridiculous things for you such as sacrificing my sleep that you know I very well love by literally pulling myself out of bed to see you, especially when you ask and I’m glad I did that the very first time when you asked this summer. Tonight you kept saying that if I really wanted to see you then you’d come and hang out with me for a while because it’s the least you can do by coming out when I want to see you, but like I said, I don’t expect you to the same all the time, it’d be nice though. As much as I did want to see you and hang out, I can go without seeing you for another night. I’m not a cling wrap and you should know that by now, especially because this isn’t titled. I know you would be here in a flash if I said I was dying to see you for whatever reason and you would do so not only because I’m someone so close to you that you care about and for the fact that whenever you say you need me or when you ask to just hang out I’m there instantly. I had a good day and seeing you would have topped it off but I’m not someone that expects to have the cherry every time.

We tell each other that we’re too good to the other on a regular basis, and its nights like this, where we argue about things like such that give us another reason to be happy with what we have. You never joke when you say that I’m too good to you and it’s times like tonight when I want to see you that you really want to make it up to me, even when I disagree and tell you how it’s unnecessary for you to do so right now, you don’t let it go that easily. I’m more than happy to make you happy and be good to you, I take great honour in doing so, but like I’ve said before, I don’t except you to give in to me everytime when I want something. I believe that some part of you really did want to see me too despite your tiredness if you really wanted a goodnight hug at the least right when we were arguing, which never really existed before tonight. I asked you if our argument could end if I saw you right then and gave you a big hug then run away but you brought to our attention that if I hugged you and tried to run that I wouldn’t go far because you would grab me or just not have let me go to run away to begin with. We both know for a fact that it couldn’t happen like that; I could never just hug you and run away right away. If I tried to run from you right after meeting you up and hugging you wouldn’t let me go. Would you really ever let me go out of your life for one, let alone after arguing?

I may not be certain about you or us but go for it, keep calling me babe, but sooner or later I may have to tell you that you can’t just call me your babe when I’m not yours because of the way you’re using it. We’re eventually going to have to talk about how we jumped the line. You really treat me like I’m yours but there’s no title attached, it has always been some sort of amazing with us regardless. You can call me babe on the regular and everything you say is true, so like you’ve said before, it’s easy to say things you mean, so what now? I can give the world to keep you, I just need time. We both have needed time to heal our hurt, worries, and memories of our past that may still linger although we know we’ve got a good thing and each other. You’ve never ceased to amaze me in these past two years, you do so everyday and with everyday you’ve brought a smile to my face and you’ve only made me happy and happier. Our relationship doesn’t even justify or amount up to enough to explain what euphoria you bring me to.